Branden played solo at the Bazaar Cafe last night and snuck another partial cover of one of my songs in. The Bazaar Cafe has a strict no-covers policy and this is the second time he got around it like that. Always fun. This time he put a verse of Christian Scientist in there. Pretty cool.
The wanker and KJ were there as well as a couple of the kids’ classmates. The show was very good. I told Branden that I was going to start a Branden Kolarik cover band. He said he wants to be in it.
The weird one was there, too, in a distant mood. I walked home after the show while they all went out.
I came home and wrote a song about the stuff - the first one that I thought was decent. I can’t use it in Pet the Bunny but whenever I get out and start playing solo gigs, I’ll use it then.
The band may not be long for the world, which really bums me out. In some ways, I may be fighting to hold on to it to the detriment of being able to be honest about stuff and trying to force her to either work things out or for me to walk away. I love the band, however, including playing with her. Things are so unhealthy between us, though, that this is probably the wrong way to go about things. On the other hand, I also think I should be laying low until the summer because I don’t want to be further distraction to her schooling. There’s another issue that I can’t really write about … but not talking about it is playing into her hands. She’s basically playing the same game she played on me and I’m doing my best not to call her on it in a way that causes the band to break up.
I’m in a state of confusion.